Friday, September 5, 2008

FACEBOOK REVOLUTION!

I was never a big fan of MySpace, it always seemed too cheesy to me, but I eventually started a profile and never really kept up with it for various reasons. I did however start a Facebook profile and it’s been a great tool to keep up with and re-connect with old friends. One of the best parts of this is finding old high-school friends. Recently I have found a few that I had always wondered where they ended up and what they were doing. I’ve been so happy to hear from them and know they were doing well. So far most of my friends from high school are now married with kids, not much of a surprise coming from Utah. Some have moved away from Utah and some have just moved away from our small town and they’re happy.

This morning I got a message on Facebook from a guy that I had the hugest crush on when I was 19. He was 23 and he had great hair, a killer smile, beautiful laugh, warm heart and happened to be dating Miss America, well not exactly Miss America, but she was runner-up (or top 10, can’t remember which now) to Miss Utah, which in my home state means you’re beautiful and can sing. My one biggest regret with him is that I never got to kiss him! I was just way too shy to make a move. Nowadays my mid-thirties self will look back on my teenage and early-twenties self and shake her head all the time, I was shy, insecure and so very naïve. Hell, I don’t even know what his feelings were toward me, even though we never went on a “date”, we did spend some time together and he turned me on to one of my favorite bands Live, and now is the time I wish I would have just asked how he felt or, horror of horrors actually asked him out. Fear of rejection at the time I suppose is my only answer. Now I say, “Screw rejection!” Hell I’ve dealt with rejection; I would just like to get rid of the unknown!  The unknown vexes me greatly.

The guy is now married to Miss America and they have three children, no big surprise there, in fact nothing really surprised me about his current life. He has taken the path that was always laid out there for him; at least it seems to me, but I could be wrong. My only wish is that he's happy, because he is one of the people I wish happiness in life.  

I however have veered off the path of what I thought my life would end up like when I was young and I am ecstatic about it. I wouldn’t trade my life for anybody else’s because I’ve made it something I enjoy! In a very strange way, Facebook has given me a glimpse of what my life may have turned out like, had I not learned new things and tested my old, comfortable environment. I faced the unknown, I embraced the new and personally, I am better for having done it.

Viva lá Facebook!

7 comments:

Laura said...

I signed up on Myspace in 2005 and found only a handful of people. I signed up for Facebook in December and forgot about it until about two weeks ago and now I'm hooked. I have found so many people from my past. It's been really fun reconnecting!

Bayjb said...

I wasn't into MySpace either, plus all the TKAP segments on Dateline scared me off from it. But I am loving Facebook bigtime. I've found high school friends, most of whom ended up fat. It's awesome.

kel said...

Ahhh...I love your last part about how you faced the unknown. I feel the same, especially growing up in Utah and then leaving. Can you find me on Facebook? Let's be friends!

Nilsa S. said...

Oh, I'm just getting into the Facebook revolution and I agree - it's a great way to keep up with people who would've otherwise remained lost!

Summer said...

Right on sista! Facing the unknown...breaking away from the paths that so many Utahns take. That is a big part of why you are so freaking awesome!

Sarah Bellum said...

Summer, I think she's awesome because she's got an amazing rack.

Colleen Snell said...

It is kindof rewarding, isn't it, to have a look at what might have been, and to be happy it didn't come to be?